I feel vulnerable every time I drop my son off at daycare. I'm worried about him getting COVID, but I know that I can't keep him home and keep working. I'm overwhelmed with worry about doing the right thing, and I constantly second guess myself. Are we being too cautious or not cautious enough? Is my son missing out, should we be doing more? Parenthood is always hard, it's always scary. Pairing that with a pandemic is devastating. I wouldn't change anything about when my son was born, but I long for normalcy. I want to plan his first birthday without worrying about someone having a fever. I want to take him to the aquarium and let his grandmas kiss his cheeks. It all just makes me really sad, and while I know I'm not alone it is so very isolating.